Kimberly Gardner

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EXCERPT

“Hey, is Jason here?” Rain, now wearing a pair of jeans so low-slung they showed those little divots just beside his hipbones, sashayed into the room and over to the desk. He leaned across the paper-strewn surface and smiled. “It’s Benny, right?”

“Right.” Like a kid caught with his hand in the cookie jar, Benny tried to close the page so the man wouldn’t see what he was doing. But the damn mouse chose that moment to stop working. He clicked and clicked and nothing happened.

Fuck.

“I’m Rain. But you probably knew that already. You got a problem there?”

Before Benny could answer, Rain slipped around to his side of the desk. He reached for the mouse and stopped, staring at the computer screen.

Oh fucking shit!

Now he was going to look like a pervy little dweebe in front of Rain. Ah well, screw it. He didn’t give a crap what he thought anyway.

There was a moment of silence then Rain laughed. “You Googled me.”

Benny opened his mouth but nothing came out. And what the hell was he supposed to say anyway? No? Because obviously he had.

“Uh, I was just–”

“That site’s no good.” Rain grabbed the mouse, jiggled it a couple times then reached for the keyboard. “They don’t let you see anything there unless you give them your credit card, and you don’t need to do that. Here, let me show you where the good stuff is.”

Pulling the keyboard over in front of him, Rain’s fingers flew over the keys. After a brief pause, a warning filled the screen. Rain clicked it away. “You’re over eighteen, right? Have to be or you wouldn’t be working here.”

A video clip filled the screen. It showed a naked Rain, suspended in some kind of leather harness with all his goods on display. Two huge and very hairy guys, also naked, were taking turns fucking him up the ass. And the man himself appeared totally blissed out. Eyes half closed, lips parted and head thrown back, he swayed in his harness, rocking back and forth between the two men and looking for all the world like there was nowhere he’d rather be.

“Geez,” Benny breathed. Not that it was all that edgy as porn went, but to see it right up there on the screen like that with the man himself right next to him.

“You like it?” A warm hand settled on Benny’s shoulder and squeezed.

“What site is this?” Benny tore his gaze away and turned to Rain. He had one hip propped on the arm of Benny’s chair and he was watching him closely.

“This is my personal web site. It’s the members area. This is a scene from an old movie I did.”

Benny looked back at the screen. “How old were you?”

Rain chuckled. “I was totally legal.”

“Doesn’t look it.”

“I know. That’s why they liked me so much, because I looked liked jailbait but wasn’t.”

He studied Benny. “You’ve got that same look. How old are you anyway?”

“Twenty-four. Almost twenty-five.”

“You look like you could be about nineteen, maybe even younger.”

“Yeah, well– Holy shit! Look at him.”

The video on the screen had changed. It was now showing a naked guy with the biggest dick Benny had ever seen.

Rain laughed. “You don’t watch much porn, do you?”

“Some, but I never saw him before.” He glanced at Rain. “You know him?”

“You could say that. We did a film together. I think it’s called Back Door Slam or something like that. I forget. I don’t get any input into the titles. I can get you a copy, if you want.”

“So you really are a pornstar.” Benny glanced back at the screen.

“Who told you that?”

“Adam.”

I’m not really a star, just an actor. Just like most everybody else. And I haven’t done much lately.”

“Why not?”

Rain shrugged. “How many years can you spend taking it up the ass for money? I just had enough is all.”

The unguarded frankness surprised him. “I never really thought about it before.”

“Most people don’t. But it’s the money that keeps guys in the business. It’s not like–” He cut himself off. “Anyway, as soon as I find a regular gig I’m so out of there.”

“I thought you were a model.”

Rain snorted. “Not hardly. I just sort of fell into the modeling thing for some extra cash.”

Like a magnet, the action on the screen drew Benny’s gaze. “So you and that guy with the monster dick …”

“He fucked me, yeah.”

“Was it– I mean, did it, you know … hurt?”

Rain nodded. “Yeah, but that was sort of part of the plot. I was supposed to be this virgin and it was my first time.” He shrugged. “But the guy’s a real asshole too. He doesn’t give a shit if he really hurts you. It’s just all about him.”

“I don’t see how he could help but hurt you. They should require him to have a permit to carry that thing around.”

There was a pause then Rain burst out laughing, a full rich chuckle, very sexy. It sent an unexpected shiver down Benny’s spine.

He ducked his head, feeling the grin break across his face.

“Require a permit. Oh man, that’s good. Mind if I steal it?”

“No, go right ahead.”

“You have a great smile.” Warm fingers trailed along Benny’s jaw. “And dimples too.” His chin was tipped up, his head turned from side to side.

Suddenly he was very aware of how close Rain was, perched there on the arm, leaning way into his personal space. He could smell the slight sweat and something else. Tobacco maybe?

“You’re a good looking guy, Benny. You know it? Very sexy.” Rain leaned in even further, his breath wafting across Benny’s lips. His eyes were huge and heavily fringed with dark lashes, the color caught somewhere between gray and blue.

Benny tried to lean back out of Rain’s magnetism, but only succeeded in tilting his head further back as if he were deliberately presenting his lips. Which he wasn’t. He did not want Rain to kiss him.

“You know it, don’t you?” Slipping off the arm of the chair, Rain straddled Benny’s lap, one leg on either side of his hips. Slim hands framed his face. Benny’s lips parted as if of their own accord just a heartbeat before Rain’s mouth claimed his.

Rain’s lips slid over his, firm and soft at once, controlling the kiss, taking what he wanted. It was hot and wet, the tongue that thrust into Benny’s mouth insistent and aggressive.

Benny shut his eyes. These lips that were on his had been wrapped around Jason’s cock not so long ago. Though he knew it was impossible, he imagined he could taste just a hint of Jason’s spunk in Rain’s mouth. That thought, combined with the skill and intensity of the kiss, made him hard. He shifted in a vain attempt to relieve the pressure of his zipper against his cock.

He reached for Rain, wrapping his arms around that slim torso and plunged his hands into all that glorious hair as his tongue dueled with the other man’s.

Rain hummed into his mouth. He rocked forward on Benny’s lap and ground their pricks together. “Mmm, you’re so hard. You hard for me, Benny baby? You like the thought of that big cock up my ass? You thinking about what it would be like, you and me?”

Rain’s hand slipped between their bodies and squeezed Benny’s shaft through his pants, his thumb grazing the head.

Benny whimpered and thrust up into Rain’s grip.

“You saw us, didn’t you?” Rain nipped at Benny’s lower lip. “Tell me, Benny. Tell me how you watched us.”

“Wha–?” Benny’s eyes fluttered open. “Watched who?” He tried to press into Rain’s hand, but the hand slid away, teasing.

“Uh-uh, baby. Answer me first. Did you watch us, me and Jason? Did you watch me suck his cock? Did you see him jam it down my throat and make me swallow his load? Did you?”

Benny hesitated. It was a natural response to deny everything. Not that Rain would care. He didn’t think so anyway.

“I watched,” Benny whispered. “I came to find Jason because Mario was here. The door was open just a little and–”

“I don’t care, baby.” Rain kissed the corner of Benny’s mouth. “Did it make you hard, watching like that? Did it make you jealous?”

Benny stiffened and turned his face away. “No. Why would I be jealous?”

He felt Rain’s shrug more than saw it. “I don’t know. No reason. I was just teasing you. Hey, don’t be like that.”

Strong fingers gripped Benny’s chin. He consciously relaxed and let Rain turn his head.

“C’mon, I was just fooling around, baby. You know, just talking shit.” Rain leaned forward and caught Benny’s lower lip between his teeth. Tugged then released. “Got a smile for me?”

Benny took a long quiet breath and forced a smile. “It’s okay.”

“Yeah, it is.” He slid his arms around Benny’s neck and pressed their cheeks together. His skin felt so soft, almost like a girl’s.

Benny rubbed his cheek against Rain’s, nuzzling the other man’s jaw. He couldn’t seem to help himself. There was just something so appealing about him.

“That’s better,” Rain purred. His lips brushed Benny’s ear, his tongued flicking briefly inside and sending a shiver of sensation down his spine, renewing his erection. He thrust up against Rain’s crotch.

Rain laughed and leaned back. “I like you. We should go out sometime, me and you. What do you say?”

Before Benny had time to answer, he heard a sound at the office door and it opened. He jumped, spilling Rain off his lap and onto the floor.

“Whoa! Christ, Benny! Easy man.”

Jason stood in the doorway, his gaze taking in the scene, his expression betraying nothing. He stepped inside, instantly filling the space, his presence, at least for Benny, seemed to suck all the oxygen out of the room.

“Benny, did you find the membership papers I asked for?”

“They’re on your desk.” Benny’s heart thudded so hard and so loud he was sure everyone in the room must be able to hear it.

Jason turned to Rain who looked incredibly nonplused for someone who had just been dumped on his ass. A grin tugged at his lips. “Am I interrupting something, boys?”

“I was just showing Benny how to sign on to my web site so he could see the good stuff.” Rain sent Jason a blinding smile, complete with dimples that took five years off his already youthful appearance.

“Oh yeah?” Jason glanced at Benny who felt the blush starting at his neck. “And you look like you just got caught kissing the preacher’s son.” He chuckled. “This isn’t high school, you know? You’re allowed to watch porn.” He laid a hand on Rain’s shoulder. “There’s somebody I want you to meet, if you’re finished here.”

“Yeah?” Rain’s tongue slipped out and wet his lips. He glanced at Benny. “Let me just–”

“No, it’s fine.” Benny straightened, stepping behind the corner of the desk to hide his hard-on. “I think I got it.”

“You sure?” But Rain was already walking with Jason toward the door.

Jason glanced over his shoulder just before they left the office. “Benny, when you’re done there, go take over for Dante at the front desk. I have something else for him to do.”

“Will do, boss.”

The door closed and Benny was left alone in the office. His head spun and his cock throbbed.

Did Rain really mean it about the two of them going out? And did he really want to go out with Rain? Rain who would almost certainly be getting fucked by Jason tonight. Rain who had probably had more sexual partners than Benny could count on all his fingers and toes.

He licked his lips. He thought he could still taste the man’s kiss, still feel the press of that lean body, the heat of that hard cock.

Yeah, he did want that.